First thoughts about being 26 years old. Where to begin? I’m sitting here in my living room, drinking a glass of Pinot Grigio… or maybe it’s been already my second glass. I love wine. I love the acidity and, frankly speaking, I feel like nowadays it’s impossible not to drink wine.
We get bombarded by images of successful and stunning women on TV. They are living in beautiful houses with perfect white marble counters in their kitchen and always drinking wine. Lots of wine. For instance, my recent favorite: the show “Dead to Me” on Netflix is a great example of that. Christina’s Applegate character is in almost every episode with a glass of wine in her hands.
Today I wanted to be sad. I turned 26 and I still don’t know what’s going on with my life. I don’t work. I’m a freelancer with no income. I create videos for YouTube and write Instagram posts. I do a lot, but that doesn’t feel like it. Yesterday I thought today is going to be one big pajama party for me with lots of booze, candies, and chips. I really wanted to be that dramatic.
Thank God I wasn’t.
I woke up with a final realization in my head that enough is enough. I have been dramatic and sad in my life for quite a while. But was it worth it? No.
I am 26, and I feel I’ve been hiding all this time. I didn’t take responsibility for my life and my choices as I always felt like something should just come up for me. Lastly, I always wanted to find an easy way and if there was none I felt miserable and down.
This year is going to be different. I know, I’ve said it last time but I believe I did a pretty good job being 25. Now I want to be spontaneous, and I kind of was today. I went to Target and Whole Foods. Please don’t laugh. You’re talking to a person who spends most of her time at home occasionally going out to buy coffee or some groceries. Today I thought that rather than sitting on the couch and watching the third season of Killing Eve I should go to Target and buy something for myself. This probably sounds miserable, but in this COVID-19 time, Target is pretty much everything we have here in New York.
So I did it. I’ve bought myself an iced latte with oat milk, talked to my mum over the phone and walked to Target. Bought some new skincare. Whole Foods was another gem. I love walking there around the aisles, reading ingredients lists, and buying stuff that completely doesn’t go together with each other. Speaking of tortilla chips and sheep’s milk cheese that was on sale. Then I decided to buy some wine in cans so that we can go to Pier 17 and celebrate my birthday there.
I loved this day.
Btw, in case you don’t know me. My name is Natasha, and I’m 26 years old. I drink more than recommended and eat too many candies. I love a simple cake for my breakfast, and I’m a YouTuber with almost 300 subscribers on my channel. I’m not perfect and I don’t aim to be. I love what I do and I’m pretty sure I’m going to rock this year.
xoxo, spontaneous me